I won't be impatient, I won't be greedy, I won't give up. Because everyone takes things step by step. I'm not the only one in pain. Not having other people to understand, not understanding others. Both of those are awful. My life is like a blossoming flower. From the start of my youth, I want to have no regrets and treasure it. Mother, in my heart, there will always be the mother that believes in me. From now on, I'll leave it to you. I'm sorry for always making you worry. This disease, why did it choose me? Fate. It can't be put into words. You really can't make people accept it. I want to make a time machine to go back to the past. If it wasn't for this disease, maybe I could have succeeded in love. I want to be hugged tightly by someone.. I really want to be. I already don't want to say that I want to go back to that day. I want to accept the me right now, and live on. Even though I will also be hurt by those heartless glances, but also at the same time, I understand that gentle glances exist. Even though it's like this I still want to be here, because this is the place where I exist. What's wrong with falling down? Because as long as I stand up again, it'll be fine. If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me. People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now. Mother, will I.. be able to get married?